SoulSpeak™

i have been thinking of a proper title for this entry,i think the one i came up with was brilliant!

this day has been very interesting...

point number one!

ap-POINT-ment:

it started @ 12:30 am, when dad came home and gave me a letter from L.T.I., its a letter of appointment... i was informed (only thru this letter and a text message and NO formal talk)that i was pointed as ASSISTANT DIRECTOR OF THE WORSHIP DEPARTMENT OF GARY V. JOHNSON MINISTRIES.

WHOA!!!

this is really quite a predicament specially these days... with the production of faithmusic manila's latest album and its upcoming realse where i am very involved and committed to... the job description of the above mentioned position would DEFINITELY be in conflict with my commitment with my ministry @ church... it would really be an honor to be offered such a position but i would want to be able to do it properly... at this time it would be not possible...

and this would be a "very complicated" decision... with lots of events revolving around it,as to why i am being ap-POINT-ed

i am still praying hard about it... but a wise mentor had this wise words to say... "at times the most annointed answer is NO..."

just a side note... i happen to be very annoyed with someone concerning this,excuse me on "FLAMING"...

my friends forgive me!

someone has been trying to convince me (RATHER ANNOYINGLY) to accept this position... when i tell her about my commitment at church, which in the first place she knows VERY WELL... she replies to me with this "You are not the only one who is doin lots of stuff, that she also has a lot of stuff to do!!!"

SIS i tell you this, first i didnt complain... i all said is that i have a lot in my hands... and second... the difference with you and me is that,YOU are a PAID STAFF of that ministry and i am a volunteer... do you see the difference??? that is your job, you cant whine about your responsibilities! and my first priority ( you should know this!) is my LOCAL CHURCH!

enough of that!!! again i apologize for FLAMING!

moving on...

point number 2

what could be more pointed than a NEEDLE???

yes my friends,you heard it right... a NEEDLE! those who know me, knows quite well that me and needles don't mix... AT ALL!

i have had 2 really deep cuts which would have required several stitches but i have refused to be stitched cause of what else? NEEDLES!

but today i stood at the face (i actually looked away! hehehe!) of my greatest fear and WON! TWICE! hehehe!

to give a brief history on what am talking about... i have been healed recetnly of this re-occurring dizziness and random "motion sickness" (did i get it right doc ellen? hehehe) then i told one of the churches up and coming(PALAKPAKAN,first tagalog word!!!) physician doc ellen licup about my condition... to make it short we agreed to have an acupuncture encounter! hehehe

and it happened just this evening! hehehe! it was really the most nervous I've got in years!!! but i was reminded with what the bible says in 2Timothy 1:7

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind."

and yes my friends i faced the [long and scary looking needls!] needles and won not once but twice!!! hehehe!
it was a really weird feeling &seeing them 2 and a half inch long needles sticking outta my skin which is stimulated(what it means is that doc ellen twists the needles while they are stuck on my flesh!!!) every 5 minutes!!! but at the end of this"ordeal", i overcame my fear of needles!!!

i just continue to praise God for his continuous presence in my life...
giving me increase...
seeing that i overcome my fears...

he is my source and my strength!

this was a very "pointed" day indeed!

ps.
thanks to doc ellen for acupuncture-ing me!!! receive your harvest!

there has been one song in my heart and my mind for weeks (possibly a month even!) its David Crowder's -wholly yours...

i first heard it on new song cafe where David Crowder (one of the persons i look up to as a Christian musician) was interviewed by Vicky Beeching to teach this new song...

i was a fan of his guitar skills IMMEDIATELY! the way he played the song was so BRILLIANT!!! first i just liked to play it cause it made me look good as i play it (hehehe) and i kinda show off when i do forgive me please!

after i've gotten over the preliminary infatuation with how skillfully this song was made i tired to sing along as i played... as i expected it was really a challenge to do so,with all his finger movements! (am posting the video as well, so you'll all know what i am saying! hehehe!!!)

as i read thru the lyrics i found how deep and profound it was... it came closer to my heart... one of the parts that hit me was the first pre-chorus which sings:

But a certain sign of grace is this:
from the broken earth flowers come
pushing to the earth...

i was like, WOW! such poetry and truth! in a conversation with a friend we talked about what grace means... i loved how he defined grace... he said grace is receiving something we don't deserve! i just have to say it is mind blowing just trying to fathom what he has given us and why he gave it!

I am using this song (with some work around some lyrics) in the next Worship Service I'll lead at L.T.I. thats the first saturday of august at 9 am in buencamino in alabang just across honda

As i search deeper thru this song i find myself in the same position as David Crowder when he writes (tho i think it was his mum who wrote this song he said it in the video!) what i believe is the climax of this song,it sings:

But the harder I try
the more clearly can I
feel the depth of our fall
and the weight of it all
And so this might could be
the most impossible thing:
Your grandness in me
making me clean
Glory, hallelujah

i just love how well written this song is!

i really should say that our language hasn't come up with the adequate words to define what God has given us thru his Son,Jesus... like what the last bit said,the harder we try to imagine, fathom or comprehend his grace for us the more clearly we see our "un-worth"... we should just stop trying to put reason behind it and just be thankful of this precious gift!

i'll cap this post with the message that this song left in my spirit as i broke down the song to its very core...

this is the certain sign of grace he referred to:

from the broken earth

-earth-pertains to us for we were formed from the earth into his image and likeness
what makes the earth broken is that it is not watered by its farmer, in our case its the earth refusing to be watered! like us refusing God's love

flowers come pushing to the earth

-that in spite of everything, if we JUST let him into our hearts... receive his grace... and acknowledge that we are nothing without him... from within us a new creation will come pushing to the earth!

GLORY TO GOD!!!

here is the video

by nature i joke alot... its even hard for me to keep myself from smiling! this really hit me hard! so hard that it smacked the smile outta my face and i just had to post it!

i just got back from my friends place and by chance they were watching "imbestigador" on TV!

*for those who dont know what the show is all about,they expose illegal activities by people and more often they expose public officials or government employees and all the crookedness they do!

i LIKED it... keyword LIKED it,until tonight's episode specially one certain segment...

in this segment, they exposed a traffic enforcer who stole less than a liter of gasoline from his SERVICE MOTORCYCLE by draining it and transferring it to his to his PERSONAL MOTORCYCLE. this traffic enforcer also uses his service vehicle for personal use (eg. taking his kids to school or his wife to work)

i do not condone with what he did... yes it is stealing its a sin and what he did was a crime... i believe that there arent any shades of sin, there isnt a white sin or a black sin that glows eerie red! no one sin is bigger than the other...

according to the report... collectively,the gas he consumed in using his service vehicle for personal use plus the half a liter(ok maybe a bit more than half) would amount to somewhere less than 800 pesos a month! wow thats a lot isnt it?

my disappointment was they showed his face and, said his name on national TV and showed his humiliating dismissal from his job...

come on guys! thats kicking a man when his already down!

what chance did you give the guy to start over a new and reformed life? who would hire him?

what choice do you leave him? especially when he has kids to send to school! what career could he pursue now? being a "drug traffic enforcer" and yes my friends PUN WAS INTENDED!

its a shame that in their pursuit to back up the networks tag line "serbisyong totoo", "genuine service" in English for my foreign friends... THEY ruined a family's future... or hopes of a good one... consider the kids at school... the wife at work or just them in the neighborhood?

with all sarcasm in my body i salute you by catching the biggest fish in the fishbowl!!!

it pains me to witness that they show his face (someone who stole 800 pesos a month) and hide the face of someone who actually killed a person (or was a suspect i cant remember out for frustration, sorry!)

well whats done is done...

to end this entry i quote Matthew 7:1&2

Judge not, that you be not judged. For with what judgment you judge, you will be judged; and with the measure you use, it will be measured back to you.

ehem...
So it begins...

Day one...

Have discussed these 3 words with a close friend and have been thinking about it loads...

TEMPTATIONS

TRIALS


TESTS

we have discussed that tho they may have been used interchangeably in the bible each one is entirely different from the other and has life altering outcomes (just depends if you overcome or not)...

TEMPTATIONS
Source
- Various (but definitely not God)
when you overcome it
- your status remains unchanged ( hopefully we learn something outta it!)
when you don't
- well everyone knows what happens after... need i say more?! hehehe

TRIALS
Source
- LOTS (circumstances, man, our decisions)
when you overcome it
- you prove your worth "to someone" or "of sumthing"
when you don't
- one will have less of the benefits of what he/she used to enjoy...

TEST
Source
- LOTS ASWELL (keynote*- God only tests us with good things!)
when you overcome it
- it brings increase and promotion to ones life! also tells us to prepare for the next one!
when you dont
- you just get ready to take another!

just my two cents...